Now that Charlotte is 5 months old I feel there there’s this silent
expectation that I’ve got everything figured out now. Well, that’s not the
case, in the slightest. I do feel more comfortable with taking care of her, I
feel like I know her well enough to know her needs and wants and we are sort of getting into a schedule. My
OCDness is driving me really hard to set up and stick to a schedule for the
whole day – but I think that’s just annoying to my husband because let’s face
it – it never works out that way, something always happens to throw us off
course.
I thought that by this point I would be so far back into the swing of “normal” life and because I’m not I feel like I’ve failed somehow. But maybe what I need to come to terms with is that our “normal” isn’t the norm anymore. I asked for this new life; I wanted it for so long and I was blessed with an amazing daughter and a beautiful family. I need to remind myself of that fact every time I feel a little selfish and start to miss my old freedoms. Time to start living this new normal before it becomes old again. That's something else I'm learning - with children life is always changing, once you think you have things figured out, it's time for a change...
I thought that by this point I would be so far back into the swing of “normal” life and because I’m not I feel like I’ve failed somehow. But maybe what I need to come to terms with is that our “normal” isn’t the norm anymore. I asked for this new life; I wanted it for so long and I was blessed with an amazing daughter and a beautiful family. I need to remind myself of that fact every time I feel a little selfish and start to miss my old freedoms. Time to start living this new normal before it becomes old again. That's something else I'm learning - with children life is always changing, once you think you have things figured out, it's time for a change...
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